it’s back…

that’s right my P.E.R.I.O.D.

pbeckham was 6 months old (just fyi, that little incentive they say about nursing mom’s not getting their period, not true. mine came back with both of my kids 6 months postpartum). the difference between rylan to beckham is i eased into my cycles, with rylan it took almost 6 months before i started having debilitating periods again. having a baby cleans out the uterus, much like a laporoscopy (which i talk more about in my endometriosis post). with beckham my very first cycle wrecked me, and each cycle worst than the last. Continue reading

the team. the plan.

bc66843f88de7e921d7b2e1748aa716ba23205bcwith beckham’s first birthday in sight, i needed to create a plan for ‘after nursing‘. if it were up to my doctors, they would have preferred i quit nursing & start on my meds at 3 months (if not before). however they do support & respect my decision. a couple times this year i reached my max, the pain was more than i could bare. i threw up my hands and said i’m done. but both times God was so faithful, the next day He filled me with just enough strength & perseverance to do one more day. and here we are a week from beckham’s first birthday Continue reading

self-preservation.

do you know that feeling of completely running your tank dry? you have dealt with so much physical pain, you have nothing more to give, no more that you can do… but then, you have a time when it’s not quite as bad, maybe even good (i use the term ‘good’ loosely, for people with chronic pain and inflammatory diseases good is relative).  personally i find myself in a state of self-preservation.

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full definition of self-preservation::: 1. preservation of ones self from destruction or harm 2. a natural or instinctive to act as to preserve one’s own existence. Continue reading